My First Blog

Hi, my name is Faith. Many of you know me, and many of you do not, however I want to thank you for stopping by my website. On August 31st, 2015 I was diagnosed with very high risk Acute B Cell Lymphoblastic Leukemia. Before I was diagnosed with cancer I thought that I was invincible, as every teenager does. I never imagined that something like this could happen to me. To me, cancer was just something that I heard about from other people who were struggling with the battle that I to now struggle with every day. But was I wrong. Cancer can sneak into the life of anyone, at any time. Cancer does not discriminate. I am almost 5 months into my journey with cancer and I want you to know, it has been the most difficult thing I have ever had to deal with in my entire life. Those of you who read the updates that my mom posts are well aware of the hardships that I have been faced with. But what you hear barely scratches the surface of the things that I have had to muster up the strength to endure. Since the moment I was diagnosed multiple people have told me that I need to talk to someone, I need to journal, I need to do something to get my emotions out. I tried journaling for a while, but as I stared at the blank pages I racked my brain for the words. Nothing really came to mind other than the fact that I did not want to share my feelings. I did not want to talk about my new reality. I simply just wanted to just stay in my bubble. Day after day I tried to bury my emotions and just keep a smile on my face, but one can only do that for so long before cracking. I would have moments where I would just fall apart and sob and sob and ask God repeatedly what I did wrong, why was he doing this to me? My mom would hold me and tell me that it was not my fault and I was not being punished. Leukemia could happen to anyone, and it just happened to happen to me. She continued to tell me that it was not good for my body for me to keep stuffing my feelings, and not getting them out. She mentioned that she thought blogging would be a good way for me to express my feelings and I have a huge army of people who would be willing to listen. Because I was faced with continuous waves of complications, I often felt breathless from nonstop paddling. Therefore, I did not have time to accept my new way of life. I was not ready to share my story or the way I was feeling. Almost five months later, I am ready to share with anyone one who is willing to listen (read) to what I have to say. I am taking my mom’s advice and I am starting a blog. I am only going to say this once, (and now that I posting in online it will be there forever), Mom, you were right. This is only my first blog and I already feel a lot better. By sharing my story and my experiences I hope to give my readers a sense of empowerment. I want to let you know that if you can dream it, you can make it happen no matter what the circumstances are. The odds were against me and look at me now… I am beating cancer! Thank you to Faith’s Army for all the love, prayers, and support you have shown me. I do not know how I could have made it without the wide variety of ways y’all have shown support; such as the simplest of things like sending me heart emoji’s to something as big as setting up a blood donation drive. Nothing is too small nor too big. Cancer has got nothing on me. I have my army to back me! #faithbeatscancer

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